Dear Diary - Lost!

 I wish I could tell a happy or a better story, but! 

But, I am lost and not found - what have I done and what would I do? 


Dear Diary 3 - Hello from Seoul

 Korea has never been on my to-go-list - I did not know why as well!

In 2019, the pandemic started spreading everywhere - we could not travel or sometime we were stuck at home for months. I have used electronic device and internet way too much. 

My curiousity has leaded me into Kpop, boyband called BTOB. They are hilarious and funny as well. They got me through the 2 years without traveling and working hard. Since then I have always wanted to visit Korea and to attend their concert. 

Here I am in Seoul for almost two weeks for holiday and work. I was told Seoul is nothing comparing to Japan so I didn't expect so much. But, man!!! I fell in love with the city and cold breeze of Autumn here. 

I am very thankful to my job, my colleagues and my boss for giving me all the opportunities to work on cool projects and make some money for future and traveling. 

I am very grateful for all of the things I have in this life :)


Living abroad costs a lot of money

I always want to experience working/living abroad but money has been one of the biggest issues for me. Having said that, I have tried so hard to earn, invest and spend carefully. I live below my mean, I don't drive fancy car, living in a tiny apartment that I own so I do not pay any rent except for the electricity and water bill. 

Yet, I still have not able to saved enough to study and live abroad yet. I will try to target in two years time from now, I hope I will be able to do it. 

Meanwhile, I am trying to live at the moment. So I enjoy working and with the new challenging is very exciting for me. while I am working hard, I am playing hard too. 

I am going to Seoul for the first time in two weeks and I am very excited about it. I did not stay at the hotel/airbnb I wanted to stay because I do not want to waste money on that. I will save it and donate to a hospital (Kunthankbotha Hospital). 


The Grass Is Greener on the Other Side

"we are always tempted by and envious of what other people have. Sometimes, the old saying refers to certain situations."

I often forget to enjoy the process of whatever I am trying to achieve which is very very bad! It means that I always try to predict and live in the future. But again, I am just a human and I have a lot to learn. 

Let's look at the bright side that I have so many adventures to do and so many things to achieve, I will try to enjoy both joy and tearful process :)  


Death Bed

I got a cold and my weak immune system barely fights against a simple cold. I either sleep with my pain or I took medicine before bed time. I would think what if this is my last night and I will not wake up the next morning. 

Eventually, I woke up this morning and I am glad I am alive!

I am simply happy because I still breathe!


Dear Diary 2 - I Got Covid

 On 18 February 2022, my sore throat woke me up in the middle of the night. That was the first symptom I had and following by fever and headache. 

I took the rapid test next day in the morning, it was negative but later in that evening it was positive. On the same day, while I was waiting for my food delivery downstair at my condo, one of the three German shaper dogs (my dogs' neighor) approached me. For the last three years, they never approached me this close up. Later, I pet him and the other two joined us. I noticed that the first dog tried to lick me a lot and he looked very concern. 

Later after I found out I am positive Covid, I realized he might have known that I got the virus and I am not feeling well. Maybe dogs can sense it. 

My immune system is sadly f*up so today is my 8th day and the rapid test results still positive. It worries me a bit but I am doing my best to fight it. 


17-Feb-22 10:33 PM

Dear Diary, 

You know, I am happy in my own safe space although it’s considered a very tiny studio. However, thank to the thin wall I could hear almost everything my neighbor is doing. Right, almost whatever he is doing. 

He used to be an old grumpy guy who would watch games at midnight and laughed super loud until I woke up. Thank god he left for some time. A new tenant is a young and tall guy. I happened to move my table out to my parents’ house and saw him when he left his place as well. 

The new he is another type of neighbor, he partied with his GF and played games super loud. Until I had to move to sleep next to the kitchen (toilet cuz it’s next to the kitchen). One day I was pissed so I put my loudspeaker next to the common wall to let him know how thin the wall is. And, guess what? My method is working. 

It’s funny that now I find it very interesting that I know when he cooks or does workout… in a sense, I am not alone or in a sense, I’m an invisible third wheel 😆

Dear Diary - Lost!

 I wish I could tell a happy or a better story, but!  But, I am lost and not found - what have I done and what would I do?