"My World Vs. Real World"

A massive desk as usual! It's Art University! i think it was my first time i've been there. I made it, how do u think?wanna try? At Night Market at the river side with Solia, classmate at psychology's class!

25,01,2008 12:01am I didn’t desire what people say to me like you’re young but you achieve such a big things, which most people wish it but I don’t. I really don’t like the word “ambition” because it seems to me like being a really selfish person; however, I would rather use a word “heart” it means that just follow what your heart says to you, and go for it though there are so many obstacles. I know that what I am doing there is no one going to understand but I just stand strong go for it. I know it’s really hard being walking alone in black world. It’s like walking in jungle alone to fine a old royal. I don’t even know how my life is going to be or I might not be able to live longer like other simple people. Example Ms. Butto who is a former president was died in suicide boom, will I? For example, like in some movies people who are scarify themselves to do something in the end most of them they die but what they want all become true. It’s always complicated even me somehow I couldn’t

Sunday till now, i have been sick, headace, tired, sleepy, and catch a cold very badly. Yesterday, i tried to finish an assignment, it was a final exam i forced to so much to finish it. Luckily, i did it!!! I really hate going to public pharmacy to tell pharmacist that i'm headache, catch a cold bla bla...sometimes you feel better but sometimes it's worst. However, I don't trust Cambodia doctor or public clinic because it does not help u a lot. They don't really know what exactly symptoms are. So I don't have so many choices besides randomly take any medinices which i have tried before; and i can recover. I've took many different medicines(more than 20 peels), but it doesn't help much cuz i'm still headache so much. Still have a thousan works undone!!! How can i survive?

Janjury 12, 2008 11:33PM Today I got up so late, 10:30am. I dreamed a lot about something, it’s kind of stupid or like a movie. In my dream I met a bad guy who killed a lot people but he loves me. I begs him not to kill people but he doesn’t listen to me, and then I faints, oh my god though he is a bad guy but he takes care of me by taking me next to him when I was fainting. During that time I am so comfortable, nice, and do not want to wake up. Unfortunately, in the reality I really wanted to urinate (pipi) I tried not to wake up but I had to. After that I tried to go back to my dream but I couldn’t. What next is I dreamed about (...)! It’s funny because in my dream we were in a trip again. Today I watched about 4 or 5 movies for almost whole day. I was so headache, and couldn’t do or concentrate do any at all besides sleep and watching movie. I realize something I should know and accept. Like about love, I should not try to make people I like to like me back because it doesn’t work.

I don't where to start first because day after day there are a lot of sad and happy things have happened to me; I cry and try so hard to smile to the world. I really don’t know what to do exactly; it seems I’m losing myself in the huge world. My dream is seemed to be so hard to get because there are so so so many walls in front of me; and I have to sacrifice a lot; a lot of my time I spend to search and plan so many things how to find a way to reach my dream. I DON’T REALLY HOPE SOMEONE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT I’M SAYING, anyway sorry about that. It's me who like taking pic of myslf ;) Final i decided to buy iPod Classic 80GB So Cute :") Goodbye Nathalie/Twin.Sister/Inter'l Rath :( i'm going to miss you so much! Self-taking pic with sister at airpot!!! Indian Food is my favorit. Dinner with Lino and po vanarith and his family!!! Happy Birthday to Vathana :') Psychology class! Wanna try some? New Year Celebration! At kep with Lino family Goodbye u all:( My farewell