"My World Vs. Real World"

Life is getting busier and busier. with 10h working a day is pretty hard for me to get used to it, but if i get paid to learn and to improve my legal writing, WHY NOT! I plan to get NY bar, its like a dream, isn't it? hope i can finally do the another challenge! I still wonder am i really living in my dream or i am living someone's dream??? at this age, i am still hesitate about life direction, where to go!!!

you can give up anything, but never give up hope????? I never give up!!! I never let things go easily!!! I'm never been hopeless!!!  there is no impossible in my dictionary!!! BUT Suddenly, i am very hopeless, and i can see the end already, but for now only how i can end it!!! it's scared me to dead, and i couldn't share this to anyone .... i'm so scared and i couldn't find s.o to comfort my feeling. What IF there is no tomorrow? What IF is no .... ? What IF ? how i am going through this alone? this is pity!!! i'm scared...

I always think that running a business is not easy; but, i never ever thought it could be this difficult and time consuming so much just to have this small project on track!  My fashion boutique is en route to serve everyone. It has done about 50% only, and I already spent most of my saving already.  There are a lot more to do. Another new adventure is about to begin ;)