"My World Vs. Real World"

 So??? What else could go wrong?  What could be worse than this? Boom!!!  There are more to come!  I have trying so HARD to avoid all love shit!!! And then, boom! I am working with my first crush (one side) wife!!! Yes, you hear me I am working with his wife! Yes, that is my life! I have this weird fortune that all my exes and my crushes who have had crossed paths with me are now having lives, families, babies and more. Yes, all my ex/current crushes (one side) and my exes got married and have real lives. Added that, 99% of my friends who came to me about their heartbroken, they would get back together and get married… maybe I should I consider this as a gift for others or not just others but for my dear friends and people I care or cared.  Then, there is this friend whom I known for 11-year and consider as my best friend (another one-side) told me the other day that he has depression and thought about suicide …. But why did h...

Hellooo.... It has been awhile since I last posted on this diary. Maybe I should write a little update about myself for the last several months. I have lived a good life although I complain about small inconvenience things that didn't go my way. I have the last two amazing jobs and amazing colleagues. I have traveled a few new countries including Japan, and Europe  (Vienna, Halzburge and ... cannot remember the small town in Germany).

the universe is far beyond to reach! the unknown future holds beneat the universe!  my poem is probably the worse ...

I would rather just stay in my cage, lock the door and throw the key into the ocean 😌 Why should anyone have to go through so much just to hope that they will meet the right one?  i'm just saying! at least i enjoy eating my food in my cage :) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5I_Ec2FPOyY&t=39s this year is all about self-love!  i know that a lot people are being hard on themselves and self-love is worthless! they should wait till they got nobody but themselves only! then, they will learn to love and gentle with themselves.  Day 2 - Yoga :)

i have done the most scariest things in my life! and I am happy to have said it :) hello 2o18@#@$#$# It is just me, a small girl, against the big world :)

what should i write now! i have no words...