I was desperate in need of my good friends around then I realised I have none!

What have i done?why people around leave just like that? Even i have tried to fix but still it never works.

What have i done? What have i done so wrong, Rath? 


Given up!

Not all wounds would be healed! But you learn to live with those wounds inside you. I have to give up on this... I should have given up long long long time ago... I don't know why I keep having those hopes that don't even exist anymore.



I have this tiny garden at the condo :) Recently we got a lot visitors, a family of snail. I don't even know how they can fly to my condo on 12th floor and are these snails is relative or not! I got scared of them a bit actually but don't mind to let them live here.

This morning I checked them out but I couldn't find them anywhere :( instead i found some leaves left not he floor so I think there might be bird eat them all T.T

Poor the family!


Blood Diamond

When I first watched the movie called "Blood Diamond", I was very moved by the fact how they get diamond to the real world for sale. Since then I told myself I will not own any diamond for myself!

Where have I been to contribute to make the world better? What have I done until now? The answer is still NOTHING until someone opens the door for the opportunity for me.


Siem Reap - the food heaven, full choices of accommodations and rich history of Cambodia!

Siem Reap is always a magic land with all these amazing old temples including all the amazing hotels with incredible choices of prices.

Bus: Lavyta - $9
Hotel: Petit temple -$30
Rent bicycles- $1.5
Food range - $3 to $10

We didn't pay for any tuk tuk in SR cuz we all have our bikes and the

hotel is close to pub street.



Is there any invisible blanket from Harry Potter? Can i borrow one? I'm done with human being for now :D


Deepwater Horizon Movie!

Some movies actually really powerful to wake the f* yourself up from your comfort zone and to think about your life! Deepwater Movie is definitely one of these. If you want to know what I am going to talking about, you should watch it or at least watch the trailer below. What I myself observed and learnt from the movies are as follows:

Some jobs are tremendously important to ensure the safety of other people. Small mistakes could cause death of others. Like in this case, the cement  company didn't do their job properly in which contributed the cause of the oil explosion. As the result it killed 19 people and million of creatures in the sea and more.

Oil companies are billion dollars business so everything is all about saving and making more money. The guy from the oil company forced people to make a stupid decision in order to make money quick. The cement underground near the oil pipe was leaking so the decision of ducking deeper in ocean in order to find oil was stupid enough to cause the explosion.

Who is going to responsible for such huge disaster? The company is an entity so it can't be jailed. Is there is any personal liability on the guy from the oil company in laws of USA? How about the Risk Assessment???

I really hate this society now! everything is all about materialistice, pride, social status, good job.... and MONEY. Do they know they only have one life and it's short? When they die they won't get anything with them?

Instead, people will do anything including killing the mother of nature just to have all of these. Sorry people (including my parents), I'm different and I will be not one of them.


Get a Husband!!!!

Go and get yourself a husband asap!!! you're 30 yrs and if you don't find a husband now, u will never have one! you will die alone and will live by yourself for the rest of your life!!! 
(That's my parents keep yelling at me.)

I will make sure you will get a husband! you can't just live your life like that!
(My best friend.)

Come on la, find a man to get married and settle down. Stop having fun and have a real life like everyone else, you're not young any more.
(My good friends that occasionally I meet.)

Get a big bf so you won't travel alone! He will take care of you! Like if you had a big bf, the taxi driver in VN wouldn't have tried to rip you off and almost hit you in the face! 
(My foreign friend!)

When is your big day? Come on la .. Don't lie! let us know when your wedding is - I was like!!! Never - Then they go on and on... come on everyone is married and have a life... - I don't care!!! 
(My friends i have never met in real life again and who i happened to talk to through social media and friends i haven't met for 10 years at wedding receptions.)

Come on!!! life is so beautiful and life is not always about love people! 
(My single friends who are in the same boat.)

Man! your thinking is like a man! how come? get a bf and get married la!
(My Indonesian friend who visited me recently. It's a he and he got a gf lol!)

I promised myself to lock my heart for 2 years and it's been 1 year and half now! but i am already very comfortable being by myself. So the idea of having a relationship makes me freak out. My best friend had been in at least 20 relationships before she got married, and I've never seen her cry not even once! 

ME? When Lucky (my kinda first dog)  died when i was about 7 yrs i cried my eyes off for months and i prayed at his grave for weeks...that's why my mum never gets us another dog. So basically, i'm an emotional freaking girl who can't get over anything. It is almost impossible! that's why i'm scared of LOVE. I only had my first love when i was 23 or 24 yrs i think for only a month but it hunted me for 2 years at least! so my whole life only has been in relationship for 3 times only... i might punch or kick those guys who flirt me! By that i mean i run away lol!!!

For now, i am not scared of anything at ALL. Maybe, i will not scare of LOVE too.