"My World Vs. Real World"

I JUST GOT MY NEW GLASSES   My most favorite glasses were broken like two weeks ago, I am definitely very sad.    if I haven't told you guys, that I am quiet attached woman with anything... my belonging, pet, friends and crush :D   here is it :)

I DID IT..I DID IT....I DID IT!!!   Coming this decision is never easy for me! what a solo trip in a foreign country? sleeping in a hotel alone? walking at night alone? eat alone? taking picture all alone? talking to myself all the time?   YES - I did it all alone by myself. I should be proud of myself.   My original plan was to visit my best friend in Bangkok, but things weren't like what I expected. So I had to have plan B (I did have this plan B along but wasn't sure till the last minute.)   I booked my flight ALWYAS one before the departure so it means I am really last minute girl. What I have learnt form my trip are:   - I start to understand myself more by talking to myself the whole time... which is not good at all. - I didn't talk to human for like a few days... can you believe it? but I survived . - I started to like going around and make new friends BUT I have been grown up and was taught not to talk to strangers so her...

I know that I have a lot fears for being alone: - Travel Alone - Eat Lunch or Dinner Alone (i can do it now) - Going to see movie alone - staying in a hotel room a lone :/ I mean I can share my room with 10 people is better than staying at a mysterious hotel. - Travel alone is the most scariest thing I would say..   Guess what? I am going to Krabi ALONE ;)   I hope I will come back in one piece and alive hehe

i know being yourself is hard!   you have to swallow your principle, your pride, your dignity in order to remain yourself.   but this is very hard, difficult and don't know how long I keep holding on to that.   maybe just stay alive and go out there explore the world.