"My World Vs. Real World"

what should i write now! i have no words...

I enjoyed Sunday swimming with a good friend. All a sudden I saw someone looked familiar but without my glasses I couldn't see him well. Until I saw my first BF' s wife walked passed, I realized it was him. He was with his gangs including his wife, his cute daughter, sis in law and someone I don't know. He looks pretty happy with his little family. For the first time in my life, I didn't know love is this powerful. I even dreamed of having a small family with him. But instead he is having with someone else. When I walked out the pool, we kinda glanced to each other, and with our eyes kinda said goodbye with our awkward smiles. 

   The is my first proper online course I have ever done in my entire life. I am very proud of myself because I thought I would not have been this good haha... I got 89% score!!! Can you believe it?  Professor Fried is one of the most amazing teacher in the entire world. He talks slow and raise all the old cases law that make perfect sense how contract laws today formed.  P.R.O.U.D Last but not least, I also received a financial aid of 90% off for this course as well.... :D

I swear this breakup is like one of those Korean drama screens. She found out her five-year-boyfriend was lying all along this time. He was lying about he loved her, lying about being serious about life together, lying about going to Canada together, and lying about a lot things... WHY? Five days before the breakup, she went to a holiday with his family, and she also had breakfast as a farewell to his cousins back to London. Within five days, there were a lot things going on his mind. He was lying, and he hanged out with one of her best friend (ten years friendship) without telling her... what the hell that mean? on that day, she went to the same pub with them, and she bumped into them... she said, "I don't know how to describe the feel at that moment, the feeling was just so empty and I feel as light as cotton..." She left the pub and her friends behind back to the condo.  She immediately made a phone call to him for a talk although he didn't want it. T...

Some people broke this Little Heart into pieces Some people crushed and stepped this  Little Heart Some people just burnt this Little Heart to ground and never look back Some people just accidentally broke this fragile Little Heart without intended to hurt her Some people just played with the Little Heart and disappeared, never be found again Some people just took advantage of this Little Heart  Finally, this Little Heart is tired of human being in general. She will turns to be 31 in less than two months, and the number keeps increasing! life expectancy in Cambodia is 60, so she has lived half of her life. She will never have her own kids, she is ready to live her life by herself but maybe with a dog.  Such a brave little heart. 

I really want to take my giant dog, Aldo to all amazing places!!! But he is so huge and very stubborn.. most dogs hate him :(  Maybe i will need to train harder and see if i can take him to Kep anytime soon.

Mr. Ratana is one of the most Cambodian talented artists. He wasn't my friend originally, I am a friend of his friend. So he shared us about some famous paintings in the west and in America. When he was in NY, "I entered a room, and only saw one white paper board on the wall. I was so curious if this completely white painting cost 1million dollar???" "oh right, this is the master piece lol"  And everyone was cracking up so hard ^^ (Just example, not this one)

While I was licking my lips after eating my breakfast and turning around to find waitress, I happened to see this guy next to my table and he opened big eyes 😳. Maybe he thought I gave him a sign for sth else for V's day! I know I know today is V's day, but I'm not this desperate to find one just for today thingy! 

I've been avoided to write about my current update about life and in general, and I don't know why as well.

"you are f*king 29 years old, you got to find ways to end it!" it's a coincidence or not, its raining again. 

I was the top two candidates for a position at the international and prestigious place... But, I was told to pay two months of the salary if I want the job of my dream. My integrity told me not to do it and I will  NEVER be one of them. If i were taken the job at the prestigious place, i would have save up a lot and i would have worked for other international NGOs by now. My career path would have been with NGOs which is my dream career. BUT I would never regret my decision not even once! The award ceremony of the competition that I won...  Unofficially, I was offered to become a lawyer if I wanted to. But again, I live with my dignity and integrity so I ignored the offer. Becoming a lawyer in Cambodia is a big business. I wouldn't go details for that. I would have become an independent lawyer and would have been setting up my own law office. Again, I am not one of them and will never be!

I am not a family person so I don't like the idea sharing everything to my family. But, the last two years, i have become so close to my two sisters. I have spent more time with family and my dog :) Maybe in the end, everyone and the whole world is turning their back on you but your family will never do that.  *Exception: i still have some true friends around me :) i am so happy about.