"My World Vs. Real World"

 While I was driving along the way to treat myself a nice dinner at my favorite restaurant near Russian Market after I finished self-quarantine for 2 weeks ( sorry for such a long introduction) , I was a guy in his 50s volunteering to help with the traffic was asking a carrot from a passenger in a bike with a cart full of carrots. Kindly enough the passenger gave him more than 2 and even-handed the middle age guy a plastic bag to take more carrots.  I was so moved and realized that sometimes the kindest people are the poor. It not how much you can give, it is your willingness to share. Be kind :)

  Exchanging the gifts of childhood for the ultimate sacrifice When I was about her age, 14-year-old I read a book about her and her childhood friends' sacrifice during the Nazis war. Her story has played a huge role in my life and dream. The feeling and nostalgia do  not change. But, after so many attempts of getting a job at international organizations, I have been working for corporates ever since. T he worst thing I got caught up with modernization and materialism and I almost forget about my dream to make the world a better place for other children and people.  T he following is her story: "In the early summer of 1941, during her summer vacation, this Leningrad schoolgirl went to visit her grandmother in a village. After the war started, she found that she was unable to return home as the village she was living in had been captured by the Germans.   In the summer of 1943, Lara and a friend ran away to join a partisan unit, where she became a scout. She...

Just 0.2 Second missed, there would not have been the road accident on 10 August 2020 at 13:15.  The car driver missed calculating the timing when there is a motorbike took turned in front of him that he would not hit the bike. The  enormous consequences is the car actually  hit the bike and the girl on the bike.  I was in the car with my colleague, her husband and the driver and rushed back to the office to the usual busy day. At the time of the accident, I was looking at the side car window without my glasses on so I did not witness the actual accident myself. But, I vividly remember the scream from my colleague very loud saying that "please help the girl, please help the girl", I turned around and saw the victim.  My brain went to freeze mood and did not know how to handle the situation. There were the victim, my crying friend who was too shock and the standbys who all tried to help the victim. As such, I tried to protect my friend who stood in the middle of ...

It’s definitely not my age although the number is reversed! But, this is my waiting number at a hospital i am at.  While I was complaining inside my head about waiting three hours for the doctor appointment, then I turned around and saw an older uncle who wears a mask and sitting in a wheelchair. His eyes are so sad and he seems to lose in his thought. I wish I could give him a hug to comfort him but I cannot do that in my culture. Yet, he has a younger companion and he would be better than me right? Or maybe he looks at me in a pity way that I am  But instead I’m so calm and I don’t feel scared this time coming to hospital alone anymore. Is it being mature that what they have been called? I have packed my essentials and clothes and ready to stay hospital a few if I am required to do surgery. Luckily, I’m okay but they discovered Sth else! And I’m scared.  I come to realize that I should just live my life as if I only have five years to live or...

I woke up with a heavy headache. I took only 20mn to get ready and my tuk tuk just drove away when I got down, what a life!  Busy all day long!!! Boring!!! Let jump to lunchtime.  I had lunch with my 12-year-friend and I bumped into this cute guy!! Such a wrong timing cuz he probably thought my friend were my bf... (stupid enough this happening my head only. Ironically, he was actually with his gf whom I thought just a colleague. He was a good bf cuz he tried to show other people that he is her bf by holding her hand). Then, surely I got a bit upset cuz of a stranger! Weird, right? 

 So??? What else could go wrong?  What could be worse than this? Boom!!!  There are more to come!  I have trying so HARD to avoid all love shit!!! And then, boom! I am working with my first crush (one side) wife!!! Yes, you hear me I am working with his wife! Yes, that is my life! I have this weird fortune that all my exes and my crushes who have had crossed paths with me are now having lives, families, babies and more. Yes, all my ex/current crushes (one side) and my exes got married and have real lives. Added that, 99% of my friends who came to me about their heartbroken, they would get back together and get married… maybe I should I consider this as a gift for others or not just others but for my dear friends and people I care or cared.  Then, there is this friend whom I known for 11-year and consider as my best friend (another one-side) told me the other day that he has depression and thought about suicide …. But why did h...

Hellooo.... It has been awhile since I last posted on this diary. Maybe I should write a little update about myself for the last several months. I have lived a good life although I complain about small inconvenience things that didn't go my way. I have the last two amazing jobs and amazing colleagues. I have traveled a few new countries including Japan, and Europe  (Vienna, Halzburge and ... cannot remember the small town in Germany).