the book of First They Kill My Father
the book has taught me sometime we have to leave things with unsay. and i also break the rule that saying goodbye you must not look back or u won't be able to move on.
the more i read, the more guilty feeling i have! i think reading those books shall give more energy to fight more but now i am even down and down than before! i am all alone while everyone think my dream is so so stupid! i believe in sth people say it's stupid, and u're silly to be that way.
i was born to see the beautiful world thru my eyes and later on thru my glasses! and i also was born to see people happy. but i myself can't make it so how can i make people around me happy, it's a lie! that's why at least i shouldn't hurt them i'd rather get hurt and carry the burden alone or my guilty will be with me forever and ever..