I don't understand why and why, why bla bla.... but i do try manage myself to hard not to think too much or i might be mental illness sooner or later! Sigh!!!
Life is really hard and complicated as usaully to me, but i keep telling myself i was born in live in difference reason. And I live with only hope from inside me not really from others. There are too much ego now, it's almost exploided. It's rarely to have a peaceful sleep since my head is always working like unstopable, who i am, where i came from, why i have to live, why and why....
though i am really Choav Chak Smouk (complicated...) girl, I always keep myself h**l busy so my brain doesn't have time to think or work out of scope :D oh i do enjoy myself too. Always WORK HARD, PLAY HEAR.
I just realize one more thing, i must improve my Self-Esteem(loving yourself, encouraging yourself, being urself bestfriend, always positive, healthy minded). it's the way to enjoy beautiful life.
that's all for today.